Good morning...I've been at work for almost 3 hours and my productivity level is balancing between zero and negative. Last night, we had our company holiday party and as we are a very small company, the intimate setting is fun, yet intimidating. Sitting at a nice table in the private room of the Village Pub were four couples and 3 singles, which is entertaining as there are only 4 employees of my company.
It is no secret that I have applied to business school, but as my younger boss spoke of how it is going to be difficult to replace me and how proud they are of me, I got a bit teary eyed. I've said for some time now that it is time to move on and take the next step in my life and career, but I can't discount how lucky I am to work with the people I do. After college, I joined this company, which is now almost 4 years ago, and I know I have become a pinnacle of our organization. The plan is to hire someone at least three months in advance as to provide enough training time. In addition, I also want to travel this summer, so I figure I will more than likely only work until the end of May. Since my leaving is essentially conditional on acceptance to business school, I have opted not to apply to LBS. Not only am I done with applications, but also the decision date is far too late to do all I want to do and not leave my company hanging.
My next dilemma is work. As noted, I have been highly unproductive today and I once read something that when you leave a company, you should leave with a bang and on a positive note. Should you ever want a reference, you never want your service with the company to be influenced by the last two weeks of your employment or perhaps the last two weeks of unmotivated work. Granted, I'm not leaving tomorrow, but I still feel I should put my best foot forward. My semi annual bonus will be in January and I'm not sure if I will still get my year-end raise, so I don't want my lack on concentration to influence thoughts of my progress over the last 6 mos or even year. Nonetheless, I need to stop daydreaming of a good rest or of celebrating the holidays with family and friends, I need to concentrate. So perhaps ignoring the blog-o-sphere until this afternoon would be a step in the right direction.