Recently

I am recently single. What exactly does that mean? The word recently seems to take on new meaning when you realize it’s been 1.5 months.I guess recently means that I am not over him. I spend days waking with him on my mind, and hoping, today's the day he'll say hi. It never is. I spend hours wondering what is wrong with me and what I did wrong? But the answer is nothing. For various reasons, "we" didn't work out. I know this. But that doesn't mean I automatically forget everything that was he, me, and us together. I'll think about deep dish and immediately jump to you. I can't explain how good our time was together. I'll think about soccer and I move to your passion. A passion for the game that is exuberant and naturally, shared by me.